No class yesterday.

It was also Dhayle’s birthday. Jepoy asked me to invite some people the other day, which I did. No one confirmed the attendance till 4pm when Ico told me he was on his way to ICM. Then he said Dana asked me to come. I told him to come fetch me – my point: just to see if I’m valued (very, very pathetic). I only wanted to test if my presence is wanted since lately I’m having doubts of their intentions in inviting me to sessions. He didn’t do it. I felt sad. I seldom ask people to do something for me.

A little later, he texted that Lord was also there. The asshole L didn’t even care to ask if I’m coming or not.

I resumed my reading, then the tears were uncontrollable.