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what's wrong with the world

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 11:35:28 GMT

in the multicab going to dampas, the guy beside me kept on licking his lips. so weird. he gave me the impression that he just finished one slide. hehe.. adik siya.

anyway, we'll be having our acceptance climb later: candijay - guindulman. i'm still here at home though, scared to ask permission from my parents. and what's more, i needed MONEY for this trip.

poker

Thu, 26 Nov 2009 01:42:27 GMT

Alona is the cause of this new "kabuangan".. Now, I am addicted to FB's poker. Hehe

beer-ful weekend

Wed, 25 Nov 2009 10:40:42 GMT

It all started on

Nov 19, Thursday: Cathy slept here in the house. Dinner was with Leahra. Drinking afterwards with Ico and the ladies. Done at 3am.

Nov 20, Friday: Made an appointment with Parekoy minus Boning at pantalan. Started at 11pm; done at 3am.

Nov 21, Saturday: Was invited by Ico to Loay to visit Chingoy. Upon passing Mcdo, there was heavy rains. Had 2 buckets at Bojol with Ico's friends. By 3pm, was on our way to Loay. Had 2 more grandes. Had dinner at Baclayon and many more grandes. By the time we got to Ico's place I was so jubog already and slept at the couch. Woke up at 1am and it was so quiet. Went home by myself at 3am.

Nov 22, Sunday: Ico said that session will be resumed. I went there at 5pm and was just chillin'. Then said we'll be going to Baclayon again. Wasn't in the mood to drink. Went home at 11pm. Then slept. Whew. Rest.

Nov 23, Monday: Alona texted me to visit them for Maribojoc's vesperas. I planned to go home. Dinner was served late. They taught me poker; as I was enjoying I forgot the time. Then it rained hard.

Nov 24, Tuesday: News was there was a typhoon that hit Bohol. Morning - I was so worried. Due to that, we had 2 grandes. Danyol's neighbor, Pating, invited us for lunch.. They talked and talked and talked until it was already dark. Then raining again..

Nov 25, Wednesday: Had a scare when I left Danyol's house. It was so dark. I'm just glad that father took my not coming home lightly.

manny and krista

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 05:31:51 GMT

As I was watching the news last night about Manny Pacqiao and the unknown woman (Krista Ranillo), I felt for Jinky. I hate Krista!!

Affected ko..

I was like her BEFORE. Not anymore.

bad news

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 18:28:43 GMT

I slept early tonight. Was awaken by a call - it was Lucky. Said his mom died today (cancer). Sad, I met her once and she didn't object on our relationship (he was 4 years younger, by golleh! hehe).

Then, I remembered US. How we were. He was a good kid, easy to talk to. I thought about the others - Lucky and I had more of something.

But if I had the power to turn back time, I wouldn't allow myself to be linked to Lucky due to the age - it is so not proper. I would also not just go out with any guy friends. I would prefer to hang out with the ladies. I would lessen my booze intake and just smoke occasionally. I would not be seen roaming the city at 3 in the morning.

Basically, I wanted to change my SOCIAL life/status.

Going back to Lucky, I hope he is doing ok.

diagnostic run

Mon, 16 Nov 2009 13:44:11 GMT

November 15 was our diagnostic run to prepare us for the acceptance climb in Candijay. Supposedly, we'd run from Dao to the Tarsier Sanctuary in Corella. Instead of jogging, we ended up walking. But what's great was we reached Corella market, whew! We had our lunch.. and then videoke galore! Then some beer.. and then some more.. and more..

By 4pm, we were on our way to the city. Had some snacks at Jojie's and ended up talking about "the couple". I told them of some talks that were going around the group. Betty took it professionally, cool.

Anyway, she told me something.. and it is..

a senior saw a pic of me in one of the activities.
i had a stick and cup with me.
she said the senior Emailed her with a Picture of me with some seniors in a session, and asked who i was.
she said that i am one of the trainees.
the senior retorted that 'is that how a trainee behaves'?
and so.. that meant, i should stopppp.. i am deeply affected.

i wanted to hate him

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 12:08:45 GMT

I'm just wondering what our relationship would be if I acted differently. I vowed not to give in again to LG. But as I noticed, everytime that I am in a good mood, something bad (as a result of stupid actions) would follow. I told myself not to get too close to him again. Monday (Nov 9), he was supposed to get the money. That night, I was content in reading a book. He called, asked if he can eat - said just finished their drinking session. I told him beforehand that nothing like the past should happen. After he ate, he laid down on my bed. I continued reading on the other bed. I woke up with the room pitch dark, and he on my side. The rest -- shouldn't have happened!!!!

We moved to my bed after that. Sleep.. sleep.. I was awoken when he moved and tried to pull me to him. I resisted since I wasn't used to that treatment. I wondered after a split second, would our relationship be better if I hugged him?

By the way, when I say "relationship", I can't even figure out what I really wanted.

Anyway, we continued our sleep. Father woke me up; LG wanted to stay longer but I told him that I have to go to duty early. With that, it made me ask again, does he like to stay at my place or does he want to spend time with me longer (for a second round?) - he kept on saying that we'd go out of the house together and he'd drive me to duty. What happened on the other hand was he decided to go ahead. By the time he was out the gate, he didn't even bid goodbye or thanks. Then, no messages from him for the rest of the day.

Yesterday, he sent messages but it was regarding his business. Earlier tonight, he came here to get the money. The atmo was weird, I didn't like it. We didn't even talk-talk, just civil talk. Then he said he couldn't stay long. That really bothered me.

I am such a loser. Why does he come to me? But why can't he be mine?

weird thoughts

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 10:46:25 GMT

Im just checking my mails when mother saw Cathy's daughter. Said she looked like me. Then continued saying "si Malou sauna, mao ni kinapinanggaan gikan ni Patski, Venancio.." My gulay! I feel so sorry for myself. I am such a loser.

Anyhoo, my week went like this:
* Nov 5, Wed: Jong's mother died. Wasnt able to vigil that night. Cathy dropped by.
* Nov 6, Thur: Went with Ico and Concon at Jong's. Had some beer. Went home around 3am.

* Nov 7, Fri: Met Leahra at Dao terminal. On our way to Sierra Bullones at 8 in the AM. Reached there at 11. A bit disappointed because we werent welcomed much and werent served as we hoped. Left at 4pm, arrived in the city at 7pm. Arthur picked me up at 8 for the Marlboro Red Night in ICM with Rocksteddy, The Dawn and Kamikazee. Jammed with Jan, Vincent, Jerams. Since they didnt serve beer, we went to Tachycardia. Home by 4am.. with flu.

moonlight paddling @ virgin island

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:32:38 GMT

November 3

1pm was the meeting time at Bohol Museum. I was so guilty because I talked back to my mother just to be able to attend the event. I got there at 2pm. We arrived in Panglao around 3pm. I had my period. Left Panglao at 5pm. I kayaked with John Rey. VERY NICE EXPERIENCE! I was able to cross the island merely by paddling. Around 7pm, Leahra and others arrived. Hours after, the drinking began. Was so drunk, puked, did something with Tot. I regretted the latter though; kept me wondering what he thought of me as a woman.

November 4

Left the island around 9am. It was Leahra's turn to paddle. In the middle of the islands, we swam. So cool! Reached the city minutes before lunch. Vincent texted that they'll be at Dao Diamond. Leahra and I tambayed there. She had her interview while I stayed at Dao. By 4pm, we left for pantalan for our food trip. Had kwek-kwek, tempura, penoy for Leahra, ice cream, cooked canton. Then, we went to Dubap's place for sinugbang tolingan and some drinks. Got home at 11pm.

**scared to face my parents tomorrow**

gosh.

Thu, 23 Jul 2009 08:41:00 GMT

While I was preparing for school, Virna and Leahra texted me that Eds is already dead � they meant Eds from Jollibee. They said he was in a motor crash.

After my first class which ended at 12nn, news circulated that someone across HNU main committed suicide due to a love that ended because of a third party (girl side).

My gulay. What�s happening to the world.

Danilo Delima, haha